Gratitude

So many things happen in our daily lives, throwing us off balance and making us feel as if we are pieces of string- unraveling in a strong wind. The last week has been so difficult for me. I am not sure why, if the truth must be spoken. Throughout Steve's deployment I have felt so alone- totally stripped and in the spotlight. I have withdrawn from a lot, not having time to do anything that remotely concerns me. It is really weird, but I observe others, like at school, and feel that I am separate for some reason. And I know it is me, that is my feeling- but having this feeling of loneliness in one part of my life seems to have permeated throughout the core of my very being, to take over who I am. I have had to make myself really sit back and think about what I have to be grateful for this holiday season. Thanksgiving is a time of celebration, to enjoy the company of others, just as the pilgrims and native americans once enjoyed fellowship between their village and tribe. I have so many reasons to be thankful that I just had to tell myself to shut the hell up whining. I miss Steve, yes, and it is hard. But I have been promised that everything has its season. So this to, shall come to pass. I hope that you have not had to whip yourself into shape like I have (and I am meaning mental here people- you don't have to be in great physical shape to pick up a drumstick and eat it!) to recognize those people in your life who mean so much to you. Celebrate them this Thanksgiving! ;)